I lost 2 babies in the fall of 2007 and when I got pregnant again in 2008 I was excited and scared to death. The 2 losses the year before were devastating and I was terrified that I would lose this baby as well. Because of Caleb's Spina Bifida I was considered "high-risk" so I had tons of sonograms. We learned early on that I had Placenta Previa which is when the placenta is covering the cervix. Most of the time the placenta will move up during the pregnancy and there is no reason for concern. So we hoped and prayed that my placenta would be cooperative and move off the cervix. Well it never did. At 31 weeks and 5 days I woke up in the middle of the night, around 3 am, because something just didn't feel right. I got out of bed and quickly realized that I was bleeding...quite a bit...not a good sign! So Glenn rushes me to the hospital. I really appreciated that we have a hospital about a block from our house. I was so scared, I just remember shaking from head to toe because I didn't know what was going to happen. The plan was to put me on hospital bed rest for as long as possible to give the baby more time to grow. I was transferred to another hospital and I prepared for a nice long stay. Well, my placenta had other plans and things just went downhill fast. I started hemorrhaging a few hours later and it quickly became an emergency situation. Glenn and Caleb were in the room with me when it started and I was trying so hard to keep it together so that Caleb wouldn't be scared. But I knew that something was very wrong so it was a struggle to not completely freak out. It's very unnerving when there are several nurses and doctors rushing around you, especially when even they seem a little freaked out! I had to have an emergency c-section, there wasn't time for a spinal block so I was put to sleep for the surgery. When I woke up I was told that my son was doing well at 4 pounds 7 ounces. One of the first things I remember was Glenn telling me that the baby's name was Benjamin David (we hadn't decided on a name-we thought we had more time to decide). Benjamin David was the name that I wanted so I was thrilled to hear that Glenn had decided on that name.
I was also told that the doctor had no choice but to do a hysterectomy. It appears that the placenta went absolutely crazy and had grown outside of the uterus and had attached itself to the abdominal wall and my bladder. My uterus was so badly damaged that they had no choice but to remove it completely. There was some damage done to my bladder as well so I had to wear a catheter for 10 days (that is no fun, I don't recommend it.) I also had a blood transfusion because I lost so much blood. Despite all of that, our baby boy was doing well. He did have to have some oxygen for a few days just to give him a little help but other than that he was healthy. He looked so tiny to me. Benjamin spent 5 weeks in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit.
Look at that sweet face.
This is one of my favorite pictures of Benjamin while he was in the NICU. He did a lot of sleeping during those 5 weeks.
So that is the story of Benjamin's arrival into the world. Pretty exciting stuff, right? In some ways those days with him in the NICU seem like they were just last week, and sometimes it feels like we have always had Benjamin with us. It's hard to picture our family without him. I may not be able to have any more babies but I feel super blessed to have the 2 wonderful boys that I have.